The thing keeping you small isn't fear. It's memory. Your system learned that being too much had consequences, so it built a policy. And then it enforced it so quietly you stopped being able to tell where the habit ended and where you actually began.

Borrowed authority has a ceiling because it doesn't belong to you. Real confidence isn't built from what you've done or who you've been adjacent to. It's uncovered when who you are matches how you show up.